Once Upon Another Time

Since mostly I post my illustrations on my other portfolio blog and on my portfolio Instagram, finally decided to make monthly highlights on what I’ve been drawing every months. ๐Ÿ˜€ And to make sure I’m not posting only illustrations in this blog (gosh, I need to start writing again… |||=3= ) ).

Hmmmm… Should add more illustrations I guess… I didn’t draw much except for Pen n Paper RPG Characters or related. XD Wkwkwkwkwkwk

Anyways.. I guess that’s all for now. ๐Ÿ˜€ Jya~ne!


Sincerely, Bena nDR


October is almost over, and what is that mean?? Halloween is on the corner! And November is next on the line! ๐Ÿ˜€

One of the reason I’m a bit hype up this year’s October-November, besides of Halloween (I always love Halloween with all those pumpkins and cute costumes and clothes! AND DON’T FORGET THE CANDIES!!! It’s one of my most awaited time of the year when I was small back in the US), is this year’s November 23rd Fantastic Beasts: The Crime of Grindelwald is on theater in Japan! ๐Ÿ˜€ It really feels like a birthday present for me. Ufufufufufu…

And due to that hype, I ended up making a new Pottermore page (my old ones are gone bye bye somewhere ;w;) ). And this time, start things all over again with the sorting hat and such.ย ย  Continue reading


I won’t wear makeup on Thursday
I’m sick of covering up
I’m tired of feeling so broken
I’m tired of falling in love
Sometimes I’m shy and I’m anxious
Sometimes I’m down on my knees
Sometimes I try to embrace
All my insecurities
So I won’t wear makeup on Thursday
‘Cause who I am is enough

I think I just found my new favorite song.

Being someone who often feel insecure about myself and feel ugly, this song really helps me to calm myself down.

There are times I suddenly cried without any reason, there are also times I feel like I just want to vanish from this world. And often I feel depressed about everything… As if everything I do always turns into chaos and nothing good.

Maybe I need some time to just stop and look around. And get a grip on myself…

Gosh… What am I writing… Better stop it here…

That’s all for now I guess…? Jya.


Sincerely, Bena nDR

I wanna laugh, I don’t wanna cry
Don’t want these tears inside my eyes stay
Don’t wanna wake up and feel insecure
I wanna sing, I wanna dance
I wanna feel love inside my hands again
I just wanna feel beautiful

While You Were Sleeping

Another illustration of Melo n Yoru. Don’t know why wanted to draw them sleeping soundly like this. Maybe because they never had those chance back in the campaign.ย meru oyas

Still learning on how to color digitally once again. But nevertheless… I love how this pic turns out. (^^)

Anyways, I guess that’s all for now. Jya~ne! ๐Ÿ˜€


Sincerely, Bena nDR

This Feeling

Currently this song accompany me on my iPod. (=w=) Although it’s a bit “dark”, I love the lyric and the tune. ๐Ÿ˜€

Well, I often ended up liking The Chainsmokers’s songs. Anyways~ Have a nice day everyone~! And enjoy October~! ๐Ÿ˜€

Jya~ne! ๐Ÿ™‚


Sincerely, Bena nDR


They tell me think with my head, not that thing in my chest
They got their hands at my neck this time
But you’re the one that I want, if that’s really so wrong
Then they don’t know what this feeling is like