Finally after awhile, I got the chance to write in this blog~! \(=w=)/ Yeeeeiiii!
It’s supposed to be summer holiday now, but it’s a liiieeeee… Since I got part time job and research to do. Hahahaha… *sad* Orz
Anyways!
It’s a new month, so I decided to go with a new theme and a fresher look for this blog. 😀
I hope with this, it means I can get more time to write down something here. Hehehehe…
Guess that’s all for now! Jya~ne! 😀
Sincerely, Bena nDR
Somehow today it’s raining since the morning… And now, my youtube suddenly plays this song… Good way to troll me youtube… Very funny…
Oh well… Might as well embrace this gloomy feeling… A cup of tea will be perfect with this…
Have a nice day everyone~ Jya, ne~! 😀
Sincerely, Bena nDR
I won’t wear makeup on Thursday
I’m sick of covering up
I’m tired of feeling so broken
I’m tired of falling in love
Sometimes I’m shy and I’m anxious
Sometimes I’m down on my knees
Sometimes I try to embrace
All my insecurities
So I won’t wear makeup on Thursday
‘Cause who I am is enough
I think I just found my new favorite song.
Being someone who often feel insecure about myself and feel ugly, this song really helps me to calm myself down.
There are times I suddenly cried without any reason, there are also times I feel like I just want to vanish from this world. And often I feel depressed about everything… As if everything I do always turns into chaos and nothing good.
Maybe I need some time to just stop and look around. And get a grip on myself…
Gosh… What am I writing… Better stop it here…
That’s all for now I guess…? Jya.
Sincerely, Bena nDR
I wanna laugh, I don’t wanna cry
Don’t want these tears inside my eyes stay
Don’t wanna wake up and feel insecure
I wanna sing, I wanna dance
I wanna feel love inside my hands again
I just wanna feel beautiful
Okaaayyy… After hearing this song, it keeps on playing inside my mind. A new song from two of my fave singer: Jason Mraz and Meghan Trainor.
The MV is simple, but the song is captivating. Somehow makes me ended up singing along with the song. 😀 And as always, love the lyric. Ufufufufu..
I also love how Meghan Trainor looks sweet n simple in this MV (totally one of my body goals, as currently I have low self esteem on how I look… OAO)9).. Jason Mraz also looks cool as usual with his hat (and it makes me want to collect another hat again ;w; ). XD
Anyways, enjoy the song~! And go ask someone you like to be more than friends~! 😉
Guess that’s all for now! Jya~ne! 😀
Sincerely, Bena nDR
“I’ma tell ’em all
I’ma tell ’em all that you could either hate me or love me
But that’s just the way I am”
This new song from Charlie Puth somehow gives me a bit courage just to be who I am. 🙂
Lately been feeling confused with myself on how to act or how to spend my days. How to communicate with others and how to even react to someone’s words. Realizing we can’t please everyone, and it’s impossible to be friends with everyone.. Continue reading
Finally this year got to chance to chase spring in Kamogawa! XD Got a lot of beautiful sakura pictures. And more, found a place I didn’t know before. And here it is~! 😀
Hope I can chase spring again next year! See you next year, sakura! 😀
Jya~ne!
Bena nDR
Last year, when I tried the 16 personalities test, I got the ISFJ result. The reason I remember it is because I was laughing with Ryu since he got ENTP, and when we saw it on the Star Wars personality chart, he got R2D2 and I got C3PO. XD
What a combination right?
But, then at the start of this year, suddenly I got the urge to try it once again. 
And you know what? My result changes… Continue reading
Yosh… Second part! 😀 Let’s go!!! Continue reading
Soooo…
Lately me and Ryu just joins this discord group for Dungeons and Dragons players in Indonesia (I think it’s not only for Indonesian but also for foreigners living in Indonesia). And we met new friends there (as well as old friends tho’). There are a lot of interesting people there, and as well seeing a different way of playing DnD (they’re mostly using Roll20 and discord’s voice chat).
And what’s more interesting is… These days, I got to play series of one shots with few of them. 😀 And what character which I use???
*drum rolls* Continue reading
Somehow those lyrics from Starship’s [Nothing’s Gonna Stop Us] felt fit perfectly for how my character BoA feels about Nergui (on the fan-fiction alternate timeline story I wrote here). And every time I had a chat with the player for Nergui, we ended up laughing on stupid yet cute things that might happened on their life (and yep, I’ll definitely gonna wrote down those stories, just you wait!). To be honest, this time’s character seems hard to move on from.
But life must go on right? And new campaign coming soon, so yeah… Continue reading
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