I Miss You part #2

Sha la la la la
Sha la la la la
You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You’d hold me close in your arms
I love the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holdin’ me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it’s different now
You’re still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha la la la la
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I’m livin’ out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything thats happenin’ for me
I’m thinkin’ back on the past
It’s true the time is flyin’ by too fast

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it’s different now
You’re still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha la la la la
I miss you

I know you’re in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you’re where you need to be
even though it’s not here with me, yeah

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it’s different now
You’re still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha la la la la
I miss you

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it’s different now
You’re still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha la la la la
I miss you
I miss you oh

~I Miss You – Miley Cyrus~

Ever heard that song on the radio? Or maybe on youtube..? πŸ™‚ It’s a nice song. Miley wrote it for her grandpa. I think it’s a very nice and sweet song. πŸ˜€

Why suddenly I put this song right here..? πŸ™‚ Well.. Today my grand mother from my dad passed away. Today around.. 5 PM West Indonesian Time. I was on class, so I can’t pick up my dad’s phone call. It really gave me a shock when I read my dad’s message.

This is one of the thing I hate when living abroad. I can’t do anything when things like this happened. I can only cry alone. Well.. My grandma is already 83 years old, so I think it’s already her time. And my dad says she looks ready for that. But still.. Can’t see her for her last time. For the very last time. Is kind of.. Sad and hurting for me..

I grew up with her.. Teaching me a lot of things.. A lot of memories about her.. Yelling at me, because I don’t do daily prayers.. She often says I must do fasting and diet to make my body slimmer.. And she often asks when will I marry.. She wants to see me married.. But in the end, I can’t show her..

This is the most saddening thing for me.. She always said that she expect a lot from me, since I’m the oldest female grandchildren among the others. Before, she ask me to be a doctor, but I let her hope down and becoming an artist. Then she wants me to married, and I turn her hope down by continuing my school abroad.. I really feel like a worse grandchildren right now..

I’m really gonna miss those days.. When she yells at me.. And ask me to slim my body and such.. B’coz, anything she says, she still my grandmother.. And I love her..

I guess that’s all for now.. πŸ™‚ Good night all.. πŸ˜€

Jya~ne! πŸ˜€

Sincerely, Bena nDR

In Memoriam, my grandmother :’)

Eyang Uti.. Maaf aku ngga bisa memenuhi semua harapan eyang.. Maaf.. Semoga Allah SWT memberi ketenangan dan mengampuni semua dosa eyang.. Bena sayang banget ama Eyang Uti.. Maaf ngga bisa nemenin eyang di saat-saat terakhir.. Salam buat Enin dan Giging ya, eyang.. :’)

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